The block that is my albatross…

I know. It’s been some time after the last chapter, and right now I’m still stuck on the next one, not sure where to go next, as it’s becoming hard for me to imagine the scene or to construct the dialogue.

Maybe I’m deep into somebody else’s business, worrying about their problems instead of me to deal with it on my terms… No, lately my time management has been shot to hell, a complete contrast to the time more than a year ago when I was able to chug through even two chapters in a single day and then post them every week.

Maybe it’s my 35-year-old eyes, now straining more than ever, squinting against the harsh light of the monitor, a sign of my inevitable aging, the slow loss of physical youth, which means I’ll have to get a new pair of eyeglasses.

Maybe I’m in a tight corner, having to juggle several disciplines (love, family, politics, military, science, philosophy) at once, yet I’m really overwhelmed by the resulting immense scale that is the End of Eva.

That’s it, I made the universe of my fanfic so big that it has encompassed everything else I have read about fan-written Eva stories… Must be my imagination cracking at the seams, almost to its fault limit, beyond design specifications.

But, geez, to be honest, through my hand I want to see the fic end on a good note, and it looks to me that I have to shake off all other distractions, save for a vital few pieces that are integral to my writing experience.

Okay.

It’s time for me to begin the process of completing the story, where I have left off weeks/months ago.

As a friend once posted on her account: “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”

Time to port out from Kansas. Wish me luck. 🙂

Light & Water 40: Aftermath

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/40/

Welcome to the final chapter of Season 3, and afterwards… stand by for Blood & Water: The End of Eva.

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As for those waiting for the next installment to Angels and Witches, here’s Chapter 4: Baptismal of Fire:

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6979524/4/

Light & Water 39: A Beautiful Lie

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/39/

It’s a beautiful lie
It’s the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me–

A Beautiful Lie, 30 Seconds to Mars

Light & Water 38: The Breaking

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/38/

The first half of the final confrontation between Shinji and Kaworu.

Light & Water 37: The Road to Golgotha

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/37/

The beginning of the end.

Light & Water 36: The Garden of Gethsemane

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/36/

Just as the title implies… Painful betrayal from all sides.

Light & Water 35: Trysts

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/35/

In this chapter… well, lots of lime involved. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Light & Water 34: The Night at the O-Club

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/34/

In this chapter, Misato and the Children pay the O-Club a visit, thus keeping the danger of the future at bay, even for just one night.

Light & Water 33: Afterwards

It’s a bit short, but just some extra detail.
URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1681787/33/

Wearing the Shoes

I’m sorry if I’ve been out of the loop for a while.

To sum it up, I had to take care of some real-life issues, such as taking care of the household, trying to meet the needs of people living at home. Apart from that, I’m trying to get some new story ideas as I work, and in the case of Nineteen I’m picking up some research material which soon I could use in the story.

I admit that, of the characters I tried to portray well in the two stories I write, only the characters from Marimite are the more difficult; the Eva characters are easy for me to deal with, because over the years I have become well-acquainted with their imperfect personalities, emotions, quirks and idiosyncrasies, thanks to the accompanying screenshots, fan-made information sites (such as Evageeks), fanfiction and fanart.

Marimite, suffice to say, exists in a different world closer to reality, and therefore the need for more realistic dialogue and settings; even after repeating viewings of the anime (and I do have all four seasons in my possession) I still find it a bit difficult trying to put myself into the girls’ shoes (except maybe for Sachiko, whose personality is closer to mine) and see the world from their point of view. Given the time constraint I have, I wonder if I could do the same technique I used with the Eva characters and bring out a successful portrayal.

That means that I need to dig in more, by reading the translated parts of the light novel, and perusing the manga adaptation.

Now, I still need a bit more time to rest, before I finally have the courage to write another chapter.

You and I have to hang on for a while… A little patience, people.