Oh, where oh where can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She’s gone to heaven, so I got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.
– Wayne Cochran, Last Kiss
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He who mocks the infant’s faith
Shall be mock’d in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne’er get out.
He who respects the infant’s faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child’s toys and the old man’s reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.
– William Blake, Auguries of Innocence
Author’s Notes: I’ve been taking time to write this chapter to prepare the characters for the inevitable face-off, as I wanted to provide the last two End of Eva episodes an added stretch.
The good news is that I now have more time to brainstorm than ever before, and at the same time I’ve been watching movies and reading books again to get more story ideas, so the tentative working title for the next chapter, at least for the time being, Auguries of Innocence.
I want to finish this and I will as promised. Thank you for keeping the faith.
AUTHOR’S NOTES: Finally, after a very long spell and procrastination caused by severe breaks of concentration and distraction, and real life eating up so much time that should’ve devoted to this fic, I’ve finished writing this chapter.
Sure I had the images in my mind, but between the release of the last chapter and now, I could barely write a few more paragraphs, as it was maddening that I be disrupted badly, and before I could return to this chapter I feel tired.
But, anyway, I’m relieved that finally I have the time to work on this again (and other fics still waiting to be worked on). I hope that after this I’ll have enough motivation and energy to finish this and more… and as always, C&C is welcome.
It’s short, but still it’s a sign that I’m committed to keep on until it’s done.
Sorry for the long delay, but here it is now!
I know. It’s been some time after the last chapter, and right now I’m still stuck on the next one, not sure where to go next, as it’s becoming hard for me to imagine the scene or to construct the dialogue.
Maybe I’m deep into somebody else’s business, worrying about their problems instead of me to deal with it on my terms… No, lately my time management has been shot to hell, a complete contrast to the time more than a year ago when I was able to chug through even two chapters in a single day and then post them every week.
Maybe it’s my 35-year-old eyes, now straining more than ever, squinting against the harsh light of the monitor, a sign of my inevitable aging, the slow loss of physical youth, which means I’ll have to get a new pair of eyeglasses.
Maybe I’m in a tight corner, having to juggle several disciplines (love, family, politics, military, science, philosophy) at once, yet I’m really overwhelmed by the resulting immense scale that is the End of Eva.
That’s it, I made the universe of my fanfic so big that it has encompassed everything else I have read about fan-written Eva stories… Must be my imagination cracking at the seams, almost to its fault limit, beyond design specifications.
But, geez, to be honest, through my hand I want to see the fic end on a good note, and it looks to me that I have to shake off all other distractions, save for a vital few pieces that are integral to my writing experience.
It’s time for me to begin the process of completing the story, where I have left off weeks/months ago.
As a friend once posted on her account: “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”
Time to port out from Kansas. Wish me luck. 🙂
Welcome to the final chapter of Season 3, and afterwards… stand by for Blood & Water: The End of Eva.
As for those waiting for the next installment to Angels and Witches, here’s Chapter 4: Baptismal of Fire: